He was a very good actor, indeed.

Nothing.  Nothing changed in him after those fourteenth thingy, not even a single milli of his smile shrunk, not even his all-innocent actions gone.  Nevertheless, his eyes determined, focused, and… scared.

No.  Maybe it was not fear she saw in his eyes.  Allen…

…was sad.

Why didn’t he show them everything?  His despair, his sorrow, his anger…  That mask of his was just too much for a facade.  Lenalee was certain she never saw someone could put such persona while he was so dark–and pure at the same time.  His burden… If she were to have his fate, would she stay strong for her friends?  Would she just eat like nothing ever happened?  Would she just burst a carefree laugh when a lousy joke was thrown?

Lenalee couldn’t say which one she liked better, the old sugarcoated Allen or the new one.  The gray man (he was worth a man after everything he has been through) standing several feet in front of her was a mature version of the one she met long time ago.  Back then he was so free and teen and pats on his snowy head would be the best way to thank him (just like a cute puppy) but now it would be a wine for him above the table, fist greeting on his broad shoulder to tell him he was the man.

His jaw defined, his muscles sharpened, and his back widened.

She liked the way he talked now–without those honorifics–because it made her felt closer to him.  He was so far right now that she couldn’t reach out for him; there was always an invisible wall surrounded him and that blood-like fire dancing twirling around him.  Even though she was on his arms, protected and loved, their body pressed against each other, so near that she could lick his sweat off his firm neck, smell his scent mixed with rust (blood! she screamed silently) and tiredness; she still couldn’t find Allen.

Perhaps he did that so no one knew he was putting more distance.

Was he afraid that he would harm them?  He would destroy ones he loved the most?

It wasn’t that Lenalee full of herself that she thought she was one of his beloved (she blushed at the thinking); of course, there were people better than her to take that place.  Still, whoever she was to him, he wouldn’t hurt her in any way.

Well, he would if he kept his reborn confidence.  If she didn’t know him well, she would judge him as a Casanova.

He was too good at manipulating.  No one could deceive people the way he did–and look at how much burden he got!  People all depended on him!  And she… from the first place, as the nuisance of the group, she had been grabbing his sleeves for safety.

His smile melted people he wanted to be his comrades.  He got some serious back-ups if he wanted to say ‘help’. They would be there for him, sure, but he never called anyone for it.

Fourteenth.

“If the time comes, please kill me,” his crispy voice echoed, fresh on her ears.  “But… it won’t happen that way.  If the Fourteenth tries to attack the order–” which Lenalee damn believed he would not, “I’ll stop him.  You’ll see.”

And Allen would not be alone when the time really came.  She was there.  Everyone would be there.

Allen was gonna make it for sure.

Ah, and he was hotter with his new hair.

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Disclaimer: Don’t own D. Gray-Man.

A.N.: This is my very first D. Gray-Man fic.  I’ve been downloading all volumes this week and found this manga is very interesting and sweet.  True it is rather cliché when the heroine of the story carried the biggest burden, but well, that’s the lovely point!

I downloaded Soul Eater too, I have read it until the fourth volume, and I still couldn’t find the charm.  Wonder why it ranked high on onemanga.

To the R, to the E, to the V, to the I, to the E, to the W.  You know what I mean.  And constructive criticism, suggestions, and corrections are highly appreciated.  I deeply apologize for typos and… Soul Eater fan.  Peace, bro c:

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Lagi seneng sama yang namanya ngetik di fanfiction.net, eventhough i havent written anythin this past month.

ngomongin apa yah…

skul.  oke, skul.

Seperti yang diketahui, aku sekolah di SMAN 1 Teladan Yogyakarta.  Skul yang lumayan favorit di Yogya.  Semester pertama aku rank 4 se-skul (I know, shocking.) .  Aku juga kaget.  Kaget banget, sumpah!! Ini malah jadi beban, soalnya kalo nilaiku turun bonyok bakal sangat amat merasa kecewa sama aku.  Again, so far, darkness engulfed.

Mom said aku gapapa ga belajar, asal pas kelas tiga nanti total.  Okay, aku ngikutin saran itu, tapi jadi kebablasan.  AKu ga pernah belajar, ngenet trus, tidur malem cma karena ngetik cerita buat fanfiction ato malah baca cerita di fanfiction, tidur di kelas pas pelajaran science.  Nilai-nilaiku entah, turun ato nggak.  I’ve done my best–eh, nggak deng, aku nggak ngapa-ngapain sih

Aku masuk klub sigma (aku udah cerita belum?), klub jurnalistik.

Temen-temenku sekelas asik.. (i swear, asik!!!), nama kelasnya SLOB, Spatu Lobok Lola Lolo Boo… tapi berhubung guru-guru ga suka kami njelek-njelekn diri sendiri (lola-lolo itu semacam bego), kami ganti artinya dengan Lincah dan Oke.  I know, how norak is that!!!!!  Alay banget.

Ah, sudahlah.

Mau berpuisi bentar (mentang-mentang anak redaksi)

im not whole.

well, i’ve never been.

and i will never be.

night, without stars and moon and planets and supermassive black hole, is dancing around me,

mocking me with all of his might,

sticking his tongue out to me,

teasing: what have you been?

and i answer: i have been busy.

moon asked: busy?  are you?

i lied: yeah.  im working half of the day.

moon replied: im working 24/7.

i retorted: why do you care?!!

moon replied smoothly: because i am here for human.  are you a human?

hmmm… in this chapter, i realise that Sasuke isn’t good as before, he wants to revenge for Itachi…

Mainly, Hawk defeats the eight-tailed beast. They bring him to Akatsuki, and Sasuke tells Madara his plan to revenge on Konoha. Not only for the tree elders, but also all people in Konoha. Why? He said Itachi died because of protecting Konoha (i wonder, does he remember that HE IS actually the one who killed Itachi, even though he didn’t know the reason at that time? Why Sasuke didn’t blame his self?)

Because of those three elders, Itachi killed his clan, his parents, except Sasuke because Sasuke is more important than Konoha. Sasuhe then thinks that Itachi is more important than Konoha also, and he doesn’t want Konoha lives in peace while Itachi dead. But once more, i tell you readers, Sasuke is the one who really killed Itachi.

The scene moves to Naruto. Naruto gets a novel from the frog, and he reads it. The title is “THE LEGEND OF A GUTSY NINJA” and Naruto cries for it. He remembers the time he had with Jiraiya, and JIraiya always told Naruto a peaceful world he wanted to…

Meanwhile, in Kuragakure, the eight-tailed’s brother wants to revenge on Akatsuki, especially Sasuke…

sehari, ulangan bisa nyampe empat atau tiga kalo kami (anak-anak sekelas) nggak mohon-mohon sama gurunya biar ulangannya ditunda. kemarin malah ulangan tiga, bahasa jawa (nembang), bahasa inggris, bahasa inggris. Guru bahasa Inggris ada dua, dan jamnya berbeda, ulangannya di hari yang sama… mak nyuss… Soal nembang bahasa Jawa, aku maju nomor tiga. Pede aja, and dapet nilai 90. Kaget? Jangan dong. Rata-rata kelas 94 soalnya.

Soal tugas. Kalau tugas nggak cepet-cepet dikerjain, nanti numpuk and malah nggak ke-handle. Jadinya ya terpaksa bergadang tiap hari. Tidur jam sebelas, bangun jam tiga, cuma untuk ngerjain tugas. Udah biasa sih, gara-gara GVT (Gladi Vidya Teladan)–mosnya Teladan gitu–. GVT itu super duper berat, temen-temenku pada nggak tidur, aku sih tak sempetin tidur dua jam. Itu tahun ini. Katanya tahun-tahun lalu lebih parah GVT-nya. BUse.

Kalau aku nggak rajin, nggak ngerti pelajaran saat itu juga, bisa ketinggalan jauh. Dikit-dikit saingan sama temen. Pokoknya gitu deh. Pada pinter semua.

Pelajaran penting gurunya dua atau tiga. Bahasa Inggris ada dua, tapi ada guru khusus untuk conversation. I like that class. My ability is (maybe) increasing by speaking up a lot. Math ada tiga. Fisika ada dua. Pokoknya rata-rata tiga atau dua. Jadi kalau ulangan, ya satu pelajaran penting ada tiga kali.

Huuuh… Kalau baca mungkin mikir gini, “alah itu mah gampang!” tapi kalau ngalamin sendiri? Susah!

Masuk sie (club, eskul) aja pake tes. Alhamdulillah aku diterima di sigma, salah satu sie otonom yang ada di Teladan. Aku senang, tapi ada yang ngganjel. Ada orang yang gak kerja diterima soalnya. Gini-gini, tesnya empat kali. Tugas pertama, sesuai dengan bidangnya, aku redaksi. jadi disuruh bikin opini, cerpen, sama puisi. Yang kedua wawancara, yang ketiga bikin booklet, majalah kecil gitu, yang terakhir bookletnya dipresentasikan.

Huuuf. Hope my life would be so much better by entering Teladan… I hope so…

then the scene moves to Naruto… the frog said that he has been very good at controlling oil. and guess what happened to naruto’s face? his eyes are surely like frogs!

wanna read? click here!

Actually, the code isn’t just consist of numbers, but it also contains Japan’s alphabet… maybe katakana or hiragana?  i don’t really understand about that.  the first alphabet of each row shows Jiraiya’s novel, and the number shows its pages.  The code is finally solved, but it doesn’t mean a thing… it’s really hard to understand it.  the code is: hon mo no ha i na i.

meanwhile, in another place, sasuke and the gank is finding for eight-tailed.  they just had became akatsuki’s member… how sad… they wear akatsuki costum, sasuke is sooo cool…. but ihate it!  finally they meet the eight tailed, and sasuke fights him. 

naruto trains in myobokuzan, the place where Jiraiya ever trained.  there, naruto trains to get sage techniques.  the risk is: naruto will be frog statue forever if he doesn’t concentrate hard at it.

sasuke fights the eight-tailed.  eight-tailed is so experienced, when he fights sasuke, he able to write something in his book.  then he becomes more serious after knowing sasuke has good skill on fighting.  eight-tailed is so fast, until suigetsu can’t read his moves.  sasuke tries the chidori-sword, and it  doesnt work.  poor sasuke.

when eight-tailed beast wants to do his last move on sasuke, suigetsu, juugo, and karin help.  sasuke, almost dead, bite karin and everything–his pain, and wound–are all over.  sasuke is healthy again.

back to naruto’s train.  because of naruto stupidity, he can’t concentrate, and he asks whether he can use kagebunshin for training.  the frog–i forgot the name,–, agrees, but no more than four.  but kagebunshin means nothing also.

sasuke again.  eight-tailed beast escapes, but karin know where he is exactly.  then finally, the eight tailed beast does his technique—EIGHT!!

this is the end of the chapter.. wanna read it yourself?  click here!

Mungkin kayaknya dari luar SMA Teladan tuh keren banget, tapi ya dalemnya nggak sebagus yang dikira kok…  kalo kamu jadi siswanya, rasanya berat deh sekolah di sini… tugasnya super banyak, moving class yang bikin keringet, hiiihhh…

Mitos di sini ada, ya.. tentang Mbak Yayuk gitu.  Ehehe.  Ceritanya, Mbak Yayuk itu hantu skul yang bernaung di ruang 306, tapi sekarang jadi ruang 305.  Dia lompat dari lantai tiga, mati, trus gentayangan.  Mkikikik.  Tapi sebenernya nggak gitu kok.  Katanya sih dia kecelakaan di perjalanan menuju sekolah.  Dia suka banget main lagu La Paloma, and akhirnya kalo ada yang main lagu La Paloma di skul, didatengin sama Mbak Yayuk.

Kelasku lumayan asik, aku di kelas X.1.  Anak-anaknya olim face–olimpiade face, anaknya pinter-pinter getoooo…  aku kan jadi minder, aku nggak begitu pinter sihhh.. moga-moga aja aku jadi tambah pinter dengan bersekolahnya aku di SMA 1… amiinnn

ceritanya aku mau ke jakarta nanti malem, untuk Asean Scholarship… wahwahwah… doain yahh

uups, udah dulu yah, ntar dimarahin doi–pak guru..

Tsunade told Naruto that Jiraiya had dead and left a code. The code is:

9,31,8

106,7

207,15

Naruto was really angry, sure it was. He was keep in blaming Tsunade, and went away from her office. He thought about the time he had passed with Jiraiya. Then he met Iruka. Iruka wanted to treat Naruto a ramen, and suprisingly, Naruto rejected it.

When it was night, Naruto bought a pair of ice cream, and cried. Iruka came towards him. Iruka helped him, and took one of the ice cream.

In the morning, Tsunade gave the codes to Shikamaru. She went away for crying. Huhh. even Tsunade couldn’t buried her feeling!! Hehe..

that’s the end of this chapter. The next chapter: THE KEY!

read this manga

Kemarin malem aku nonton extravaganza live, langsung di studionya. Yang ngagetin, ternyata studionya kecil. Ada tiga tribun, kanan, kiri, sama tengah. Aku duduk di tribun kanan, jadi nggak kesorot kamera. Yang disorot kamera yang lagi swing ternyata tribun tengah doang. Tribun kanan nggak pernah di swing soalnya tangga antara tribun tengah sama kanan didudukin orang (kehabisan tempat duduk)

Studionya kecil, as i said before. Tribun tengah ada 152 kursi, Senin malam kemarin (shooting pada Senin dan Selasa malam jam 8 sampai 12) dipenuhin sama anak-anak SMA Monas gitu. Trus tribun kanan ada 50-an orang, tribun kiri juga.

Aku udah excited banget diajakin sama tante nonton Extravaganza. Kukira bakal asyik. Studio gede, ketawa-ketiwi… Ternyata… Here goes what happened last night!

Aku ke kantor tanteku di ANTV jam 7. Dia langsung ngajakin aku dan Mbak Mur ke gedung Trans TV. BTW, ternyata kantornya ANTV yang lama (di Kuningan) kecil banget. Cuma selantai. Kecil banget deh. Tapi mau ada gedung baru, di Satrio.

Tanteku seemed panic, shooting mulai jam 8, kami berangkat jam 7, jakarta kan macet. Takutnya telat and nggak dapet tempat duduk, kalo dapet juga di bagian belakang. Nggak enak. Jadilah tante ku itu (namanya Uni Lubis) nelpon asisten bosnya Trans TV (namanya Pak Tarsa, mau num hapenya nggak?? Aku hapal loh) biar disiapin tempat duduk yang pewe and strategis. Kami janjian ketemuan di lobby. Pas kami nyampe, Pak Tarsa langsung nuntun kami ke studio buru-buru, nunjukin tempat duduk di tribun kanan.

Kursi kami terlipat dan diberi kertas. Udah disiapin. Asyik. Saat itu keadaan di studio udah rame. Jadi berasa nggak enak, datang telat, dapet tempat duduk lagi, hehe… Alasan kami dapet kursi tribun kanan paling kiri di baris empat dari depan adalah:

1. Sketsa Extravaganza ternyata dimainkan nggak tepat di depan penonton.

2. Sketsa Extravaganza dimainkan di ruangan kecil dimana meskipun penonton duduk di tribun tengah nggak bakal bisa liat

3. Di depan tribun kanan dan kiri ada layar yang menunjukkan sketsa tersebut, yang mana apabila kami duduk di tribun tengah, nanti bakal meleng ke kanan ato ke kiri.

4. Tempat kami paling pinggir supaya bisa tetep keliatan artis siapa yang nyanyi

Hehehe… Asyiiik nggak? Pas mau mulai, ada peraturan: handphone harus dimatiin, bukan di silent ato di vibrate; kaki nggak boleh dilipet; duduk yang tegak; tas and jaket nggak boleh dipangku (disembunyiin); topi harus dilepas.

Trus ada one take dimana kita harus tepuk tangan sambil jerit “huuuu!!” gitu beberapa kali. Tanganku nyampe merah. Ada take lagi kita harus ketawa tanpa sebab. Pinter-pinternya campers sama mbak-mbak bagian produksi ngarahin kamera nyampe tribun tengah ketawa.

Baru mulai tuh sketsanya. Pemain extravaganza dipanggil dulu satu persatu, lalu mereka berdoa bersama. WAktu itu Tora Sudiro sama luna Maya nggak ada. Tora sakit, Luna nggak tahu kenapa. Udah deh. Mulai. Nggak begitu lucu kalo nonton langsung. Nonton lewat TV lebih lucu. Jarak antara satu sketsa dengan sketsa lainnya 10 menitan. Busee..

Ada kuis gitu untuk penonton biar dapet souvenir. Jam isinya. Nah, habis Buncit nyanyi (Bunga Citra) anak-anak SMA Monas itu pada pulang. Studio langsung kosong. Tinggal dua baris. Sketsa masih ada enam. Satu sketsa, pada pulang lagi. Tinggal sepuluh orang. Satu sketsa lagi, uda jam sebelas malem, aku pulang bareng Mbak Mur. Huuf.

Mbak-mbaknya baik loh. Sogi interaktif sama penonton. Tapi Virnie kayaknya sombong gitu. Ence ngajakin ngobrol penonton. Gitu lah, namanya artis, aneh-aneh tingkahnya…

web extravaganza, click here
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happy… happy… happy holiday…

let’s think about where to go next day

in a shiny day in happy holiday… (ngarang banget nggak sih?)

So.. So far, aku uda libur 2 minggu. Nggak ngapa-ngapain. Aku jadi kangen sekolah. Sumpah. :-p

Aku sebenernya agak iri sih sama anak-anak angkatan tahun-tahun sebelumnya, mereka libur super lama. Bulanan ngitungnya. Kakakku malah dua bulan tuh liburnya. Asik banget nggak. Dia dari Yogya sempet ke Lampung and Jakarta lama.

Aku sendiri liburan UN ini cuma dapet tiga minggu. Sampai aku nulis posting ini, uda jalan dua minggu. Aku sedang di Jakarta sekarang. Pas aku masih di Yogya, aku cuma main ke mall. Di Jakarta ini main ke kantornya tanteku di ANTV, dia General Manager of News. Keren banget nggak. Ke Plaza Semanggi, makan and beli baju. Terus ke Pekan Raya Jakarta, nggak ngapa-ngapain sih, cuma ngabisin kupon makan. Rencana minggu mau ke Taman Buah Mekarsari batal, hujan soalnya. Ntar becek. Emang nggak ada ojek, aku kan naik mobil, hehe… (lucus banget, lucus=lucu plus jayus-red)

Hari ini, Senin, aku tadinya mau ke kantornya Omku, mau magang bentar, minta ajarin masang lay-out yang benar. Eh kayaknya nggak jadi nih. Sial, aku uda buru-buru ganti baju pake kemeja segala (mau ke kantor bo~) udah pake kaos kaki… Tahu-tahunya gitu deh. Aku udah nggak mood lagi ke kantornya sekarang. Mending di hum aja, baca novelnya Sandra Brown atau Danielle Estelle.

Kabar netralnya sih sabtu ini aku pengumuman UN. Gila, aku deg-degan banget. Mau gimana lagi, hasil UN ini bakal menentukan hidupku untuk tiga tahun ke depan. Kalau aku dapat nilai UN jelek, nggak bakal ada high school never ends. Masa aku mau spending my times, three years, with preman-preman sekolahan gitu?? Nggak banget khan..

Aku pinginnya sih masuk SMA 1 Yogyakarta, atau dapet scholarshipnya Singapura. I’m trying so hard untuk beasiswa ini, meskipun nanti aku bakal rugi satu setengah tahun. Kalau aku bisa mendapatkan beasiswa ini, aku akan mengulang SMP kelas 3. Itu nggak asik. Tapi om and tanteku bilang nggak papa, soalnya Singapura exciting banget. Keren, katanya. I don’t care about it. Mau ditaruh di mana mukaku. Aku kelas 3 SMA, temen-temenku uda kuliah semester 2. Huuuh. So late.
Oh ya, aku kemarin nonton Kungfu Panda. Bagus tuh filmnya. I recommended you. Sedikit spoiler, ada Panda namanya Po. Dia suka banget sama five warriors, yang terdiri dari macan, ular, belalang, monyet, sama bangau. Nah, lagi ada pemilihan dragon warrior, dragon warrior itu warrior yang bisa mengalahkan Tai Lung, macan tutul jahat. Po nggak sengaja ditunjuk sama Master Oddsey, guru kura-kura. Master Shifu (ga jelas binatang apa, musang kali) marah-marah. Dia teriak, “It’s unfair, it’s just accident!” Oddsey bales, “There is no accident.”

Lucu deh pokoknya. Kungfu Panda masuk box office loh. Dari lima bintang kukasih nilai empat bintang.

Udah dulu ya. Dadah…